Body image after weight loss

I know I shouldn't be bothered by the looks of my new body. And I know I can't afford plastics right now. But I saw a book I couldn't resist. It's called The Total Body Lift by Dr. Dennis Hurwitz. A girl can dream, can't she??? Maybe some day I'll win the lottery.

I've always had body issues. When I was young my mother was very critical and always told me I was fat. Mind you, I'm 5'7'' and I was average size. I wore a size 12 in high school. Then in my late 30's I had thyroid cancer and my weight skyrocketed. You can imagine what my body image was after that. I had hoped that after my surgery and weight loss that I could leave all the negative thoughts about how my body looked in the past. Unfortunately I now have a whole new set of issues! My batwings look like I could take flight and my thighs look like a shar pei! I don't want to look like a model, but I would like to be able to wear sleeveless shirts and shorts or even a bathing suit.

Please don't take what I've said wrong. I am still thrilled to the bone by my vertical sleeve gastrectomy and the resulting weight loss. I feel so much better that I don't even know how to describe it. I am thankful every day that I was lucky enough to have it. I have gone from a BMI of 42.4 before VSG to 28.7 now! Some times I just need a little whine with my weight loss! ;-)